just a few minutes ago, i changed my status from single to in a relationship..
i know its cheesy, and even though its just for formalities’ sake, i was trembling.. i couldnt even muster enough finger muscle to click that icon. Don’t get me wrong, i like this new status im in now, its just that im not used to it anymore. it’s been ages since my last relationship. i have come close to one a number of times but never took the plunge. i was a coward, afraid to be hurt, afraid to love and give love. one of em boys said something that really struck me, “you know what D, you are so bottled up, you do not want to let anyone in, it’s like you always have an excuse for everything, parang you’re keeping and saving yourself for someone”
Yes, i may have been waiting and saving myself for someone.. someone i dont even know would feel the same way for me, so that got me thinking. then a lot of what if’s popped up.. so i told myself, the next time it happens, the next time someone wants me and loves me, i will take the plunge so long as it feels right.
.. and thank heavens, this time it felt right. so right. 🙂
A and i met in a very unconvential way, he was very frank, straightforward and a bit mayabang for my taste, but he does grow on you.. we havent known each other that long, but it feels like we do..
so yes this is me taking that deep dive, that plunge, that free fall into love..
love is in the air..