Sashimi Dreams…

tales of a sashimi lover

officially on xmas break December 18, 2007

Filed under: reflections — iceedebbz @ 1:40 pm

yes, im officially on xmas break.. this school year has got to be the year with the latest xmas holiday, breaking all forms of tradition since the oblation run and latern parade usually happens on the same day, but this year the lantern parade happens tomorrow.

honestly i havent seen a lantern parade in all my years here in the university coz i’d usually be halfway to bahrain by then, enjoying a transit in HK, happily settling in our flat, or going round geant at the time. will this year be different? oh definetely! for one im not going back home to Bahrain, but if im catching the lantern parade, that we’ll have to see.

i have been confining myself here in my pad since the weekend, going out only to buy food and go to class.. i have been very anti social lately, it sucks na. Even going out with my friends make me feel lonely, rubbing the fact  that im alone since all of them are part of a couple. Don’t get me wrong, i love the fact that all of them are together, im very very happy for them, since there is no one else that id like to see with them but their respective partners. but being with them just makes me think about what i dont have. (gawd, will i be an old maid? hope not)

so how will i spend my xmas break this year? well aside from hibernating at home, i’d be spending xmas with family friends in cainta, then hopefully my birthday baguio trip will push through. if no one’s available, then i will go up alone! hehehe.

life is good!


may i just rant.. October 7, 2007

Filed under: reflections — iceedebbz @ 7:11 pm

it’s the final stretch of the sem,  finals week has arrived. yes i do not have much on my plate anymore, but what’s bugging me is a groupmate in one of my subject, yes that groupmate is also a friend.

we have to submit a paper for that particular subject, its one of the last requirement, we are doing a rush paper, a paper that i have no idea what the turnout will be.

i have been a great groupmate, one would even say “those that have been my partner are lucky”. but why oh why am i having a groupmate from hell!!! one who would rather team up with someone else who have finished the paper (atleast the first draft) and do nothing. One, who a few moments ago texted and said that i should help her, i should make salo her coz she has a lot of things to do as well a paper for another subject which is due tomorrow and that she is crying while doing her paper.

she basically wants me to do the paper by myself, gawan ko daw nang paraan! potah! i practically did everything already…

i hate these kind of people.. one who would rather get a grade knowing that they did not deserve it. how can they sleep at night?

yes she is still my friend, but i am so pissed off at her right now.

when do u know when to cross the line between friendship and being a groupmate in an academic pursuit.

this is not grade school or high school anymore!!!

and if and when you do decide to study abroad, i hope that you never be like this again..


on loneliness October 6, 2007

Filed under: reflections — iceedebbz @ 1:55 am



Loneliness is worse when it seeps through the middle of a conversation,

while you laugh or while you see beautiful places or things.

When waking in an empty room is less cold

than waking next to someone with his arms around you.

When you would rather spend friday night watching tv

than a night out with your friends.

When you are willing to throw away everything for nothing.

When you would choose to have no one care.

Loneliness is worse when solitude becomes more endurable than company,

and worst,

when you look forward to it.